[PM]: Excuse me - I practically die feng-shuiing your classroom for you, and you use my amnesia to call me your TA and establish professional boundaries? I want your half of our BFF necklace back.
PM: I’m sorry, I came back to school and the first thing you do is try and play dead to get out of working?! I’m taking your half of the BFF necklace back!
PM: But…You should stay here. I mean, but here, but like…in Seabrook. Where the doctors who have been taking care of you are. And where your friends are, which is definitely selfish, but I don’t care.
[PM]: That’s obviously my preference, but I don’t really have the stamina to go up against Don Miller, Esq. right now. It might be easier to just go home and see whoever they want me to see, rest up, and then come back, y’know, if there’s something to come back to.
Hey, Carter? I love you.
PM: Orrrrrr, you can let me see what I can do. You might not have to go up against him at all. Just hang on, okay?
[PM]: Excuse me - I practically die feng-shuiing your classroom for you, and you use my amnesia to call me your TA and establish professional boundaries? I want your half of our BFF necklace back.
PM: I’m sorry, I came back to school and the first thing you do is try and play dead to get out of working?! I’m taking your half of the BFF necklace back!
[PM]: I … don’t have a choice? St. B’s is a pile, there’s nowhere for me to stay - and my parents funded everything, it’s not like I can just get an apartment with all my hard-earned cash. It’s not really up to me.
PM: But…You should stay here. I mean, but here, but like…in Seabrook. Where the doctors who have been taking care of you are. And where your friends are, which is definitely selfish, but I don’t care.
That makes sense. I don’t really know what you were into before, but you can never go wrong with the classics.
Ooh, and Maroon 5. Mainly because they’re fucking everywhere, you may as well get used to them now. Oh, and watch Harry Potter, but read the books first.
That’s fair, I had a lot of trouble remembering words at first. Ahh, gotcha. No, but that’s probably because I’m not fluent in other languages. I know a little French now, but that’s only because of Seb’s mom.
It’s seriously not a big deal, Erica. I’m willing to give you a chance. I just…I had a hard time adjusting from how things were while I was in the hospital to how they were once I was back at school, and I wanted to prepare you for that, that’s all.
I… don’t really, either. I know I liked music. I play piano. And I think my dogs are named after something I liked. Daisy and Jay? Do you… know anything related to that?
Maroon 5. I remember seeing that on my Spotify a lot. I guess I must really like them? And Harry Potter… alright. On the list it goes. Thanks for the suggestions.
Ah, I see. So it’s… common. That makes me feel a little better about it all. Oh, right. I guess I must be bilingual? Or something like that. Apparently I know a lot of languages, but Russian is the only one that’s come up thus far. Inogda eto proshche, chem angliyskiy.
I just… want you to know that I appreciate the chance. Not everyone gets a do-over, of sorts. I mean, that doesn’t mean I’m… not going to cop crap from other people for things I’ve done. I don’t get a ‘get out of jail free card’ because I lost my memory. … Get out jail free card. Is that from something?
Um. Anyway. I know that this doesn’t change things I’ve done. But it can change things that I will do. And I know when I get out of here it’s going to be… kind of scary. But taking it one step at a time and being in the moment is helping. It’s lessening my worry about me getting out of here a little. And lessening my worry about needing to remember everything.
Daisy and Jay…Gatsby! The Great Gatsby, it’s a book. It’s one of those classics I mentioned. I didn’t know you played piano, though. You should talk to Rachel, I know she plays.
They aren’t bad, just really oversaturated. No problem, recommending movies and books is the least I can do.
I mean, probably. The number of concussions in the world on a daily basis seems like it would make it a common thing. I would guess so, I’m not sure. I…Yeah, I have no clue what that means, sorry.
I’m glad that you realize that, and that you accept it. Um, yeah, it’s from a board game. Monopoly? I’d explain the rules, but I haven’t been allowed to play in like…Since the last time I was in the hospital, actually, so about 5 years. I don’t lose well.
Babe.. don’t you think I’d like to be having sex right now too?
Surviving a life endangering catastrophe hasn’t changed me that much. But you’re still.. you know. Grievously injured and shit. What if I hurt you? Do you think I’d be okay with that?
No, I know you wouldn’t be okay with it, but like…We actually earned it, this time. Like, our first anniversary was great, but we hadn’t actually had to deal with anything at that point.
This time, we actually like…Worked on our issues. That deserves a lot of sex. And presents. And now we can’t have sex, and your present was in my classroom…It just sucks.
[PM]: Excuse me - I practically die feng-shuiing your classroom for you, and you use my amnesia to call me your TA and establish professional boundaries? I want your half of our BFF necklace back.
PM: I’m sorry, I came back to school and the first thing you do is try and play dead to get out of working?! I’m taking your half of the BFF necklace back!
PM: Look at Ms. Fancy Pants over here, buying friendship necklaces from a boutique. But yes, look and see what you think would work. As long as it’s sparkly, I don’t have any other requirements.
I did, you’re right. He did? Were they okay with having been replaced by newer, hotter brothers? Thank you, maaaybe an hour? Collette’s gonna be nearby, but I also know she’s going to want to fuss over me and the state of my pillows.
[PM]: Oh, fuck right off - I’m just being practical; if you’d rather look for something in Seabrook while I’m gone, do your thing … Should we get one for Sebastian?
Yeah, he came by pretty often, basically whenever you were napping. They got on like gangbusters because they’re all smarmy, charming Doms, so … you can imagine the vibe. Anyway, I’ll just ask him to analyze our friendship and rehash precisely what I mean to him, that normally keeps him plenty busy; it’s his favorite.
[PM]: Excuse me - I practically die feng-shuiing your classroom for you, and you use my amnesia to call me your TA and establish professional boundaries? I want your half of our BFF necklace back.
PM: I’m sorry, I came back to school and the first thing you do is try and play dead to get out of working?! I’m taking your half of the BFF necklace back!
[PM]: There are a couple boutiques I can think of in Boston that probably have something kinda edgy and pretty - and sparkly because, hi - at least matching if not literal friendship necklaces. I can look, and send you one if I find anything we like?
Firstly, you missed all of it. Secondly, he’s met them repeatedly. Thirdly, of course I’ll figure something out; how long do you need?
PM: Look at Ms. Fancy Pants over here, buying friendship necklaces from a boutique. But yes, look and see what you think would work. As long as it’s sparkly, I don’t have any other requirements.
I did, you’re right. He did? Were they okay with having been replaced by newer, hotter brothers? Thank you, maaaybe an hour? Collette’s gonna be nearby, but I also know she’s going to want to fuss over me and the state of my pillows.
Hmm…I mean, pop culture wise, Beyonce. Just start with Destiny’s Child and keep going into her solo stuff. Um…There are probably some good movies, but I mainly just watch Marvel movies, so I can’t really recommend any of those. There are a lot of good shows on Netflix? I’m bad at recommendations.
Yeah, probably. Each of those squares is a different app…application. YouTube is basically just a ton of videos that people upload for other people to see.
That’s fine. I understand that you want things to be good, but know that people who didn’t forget things may still have a lot of issues with you. Wanting things to be good and actually making a change are two different things, especially when your memories come back. Just…know that it’s going to be an uphill battle for you. Okay?
Seriously– thank you for the recommendation. I… can’t thank everyone enough for being so understanding. Especially with my track record.
I’ll have to look at some things. Movies and TV shows. Things I don’t remember. Re-watch them Re-read things, too.
Okay. Destiny’s Child, Beyonce and… Marvel. All written down. I’ll have a look at them.
App. That’s the word I was looking for. Sorry. I’m… still having a bit of trouble with words. I keep speaking in Russian too. I didn’t even know I knew any other languages, but… sometimes I can’t find the right word in English. But it’s there in another language. I think they called it… wait, hold on, I wrote it down… Aphasia. Did you… have that?
Nothing can change what I did in the past. I know that. But if I can show people that I’m… not that anymore, maybe there’s a chance to restart things. I know that… some memories are going to hurt. And some memories are going to be happy. Isn’t that just life?
And yeah, I know it’s all talk now, but I do mean it. I’m embarrassed by a lot of the things I said in the past. I’m going to do my best to show people that I don’t want to be that person again. I’m sure… some of me will be that person. But I can learn from my mistakes. Use this to be better. It’ll be hard. I know. But I can take every day as it comes. And… I know you can hold grudges. Sebastian said so. It’s okay if you don’t… like me. The fact that you’re willing to put that aside to even just… recommend a therapist to see. That’s… true kindness. So. Thank you. Again. I’ll probably keep thanking you through this. But you don’t have to be my friend. You don’t have to be anything, or do anything for me. Yet you have. And I know I definitely don’t deserve it. So… um. Just, thank you.
Not a problem, Erica.
That makes sense. I don’t really know what you were into before, but you can never go wrong with the classics.
Ooh, and Maroon 5. Mainly because they’re fucking everywhere, you may as well get used to them now. Oh, and watch Harry Potter, but read the books first.
That’s fair, I had a lot of trouble remembering words at first. Ahh, gotcha. No, but that’s probably because I’m not fluent in other languages. I know a little French now, but that’s only because of Seb’s mom.
It’s seriously not a big deal, Erica. I’m willing to give you a chance. I just…I had a hard time adjusting from how things were while I was in the hospital to how they were once I was back at school, and I wanted to prepare you for that, that’s all.
[PM]: Excuse me - I practically die feng-shuiing your classroom for you, and you use my amnesia to call me your TA and establish professional boundaries? I want your half of our BFF necklace back.
PM: I’m sorry, I came back to school and the first thing you do is try and play dead to get out of working?! I’m taking your half of the BFF necklace back!
He would think that anyway, let’s be real. Speaking of, I need a favor. And yes, I know my track record when it comes to asking you for favors, but just shut up and promise to help me, please?
[PM]: … I really do want BFF necklaces though?
Yes, but also, I get details this time! No more secrets, they explode.
PM: I do, too. Want to send Sebastian to Claire’s for us?
I can’t drink PBR. My body is too delicate for so much concentrated masculinity.
Deep breaths, babe. We can make next week - or the week after - or next week AND the week after - our make-up anniversary week. It’ll be fine. Tell your dick to chill. And that I miss it, but mostly to chill.
Thank God. I literally would not be able to kiss you at all if you tasted like PBR.
Seb, we already pushed back the “we survived a bombing” sex, and the “you’re a hero and I love you, but don’t do that again” sex. If we push back Valentine’s Day sex and anniversaryweek sex, we’re going to end up chaffed once we start having sex again, because we’re just not going to stop.
Buut…If you climb up in bed with me for some cuddles…and your hand just happens to end up in my lap…And I accidentally end up with my hand in your lap…Well then that’s just a happy accidental reunion for both of us and our dicks.
